Will I be crowned Miss Houston Vintage? Doubt it. But let me reiterate, it is not my goal. Once again I am looking forward to meeting some amazing and unique people, getting to know them and loving them whole heartedly.
So. What do you do when you’re nervous? I wish that I could say that being the strong Southern Christian woman that I am I pray. But as most honest Christians will tell you, there Are some spiritual disciplines that require some….attention.
Therefore, the honest southern Christian woman in me will tell you that when I’m nervous, I clean. Top to bottom, in every nook, cranny and baseboard. Cleaning is my pacifier, my soother and blanket. When all else fails I can say my floors are mopped.
So, with tomorrow being another big day, my house is probably the cleanest it’s been all week. As I push the mop back and forth each fear gets pushed out of my mind. Will people like me? Will I be accepted? Will my darn hair stay put? With each potential disaster scenario, another dish is cleaned and put away.
Because at the end of the day, if not a single person accepts me and all my worst case scenarios come true; I can at least slip them from my mind as I slip into freshly washed sheets. Besides, no one can go to sleep angry in soft, clean bedding.